I’ve gotten over the emotional-mess-breakdown-whatever-it-was. I’m good. But that’s in the post that’s still sitting in my bag that i’m just too comfy to get up n’ type up.
The Death of Fred
I don’t think I ever explained about what happened with Fred and myself. I’m not sure where we went wrong. Probably happened the night I had gone out drinking and he just wouldn’t leave things be (I don’t like being serious while drinking). And I got in this mood about our relationship. And i had [...]
Crazy
It strange to think that almost everyone who has their own tag in here isn’t in my life anymore. Guess i’m cursed like that. It’s like they all fell out of my life (or maybe i kicked them out for not being good enough for me). oh well. what happened happened. no changing that now. [...]
margaritas
this post brought to you by….. drunk. I love mu girls. they roxk. Thw boys on the other hanf… no. thye all suck. everry major one cept ben forgot. or just didn’t care enough to say. so screw them. as i’ve attempted to learn tonight. aldcohol makes evefything better. yay
From the beginning…
Logging onto messengers via phone only leads to trouble. Since I got another promotion at work, I haven’t had much time to sit in front of a computer and chat. So I logged on via phone so I could chat when I got a moment free. The Marine took this as a chance to corner [...]
um sure
It’s not that I’ve ran out of things to say…. I have a lot I need to write down somewhere. It’s just that… I don’t know what’s going on really. Other then the fact that The Marine msg’d me yesterday out of the blue and i’m being a heartless bitch towards him. Yeah.. I don’t [...]
Curiosity killed the cat
I’m half tempted to ask if we can be friends. but at the same time, if you never want to talk to me again, I don’t want to know. I’m sorry. It was not done without regret. I wish there was a way to fix it. To fix what happened. It shouldn’t have happened [...]
Without parents to defy, we break the rules we make for ourselves.
Last night just pushed me further into confusion. But oh my god was it worth it. I was talking to Housekeeping this morning, and she was wondering why I’m so damn tired this morning (3 hrs of sleep’ll do that to a person). And since she’s been on vacation for the past week n’ a [...]
Males pt.2
I’ve been meaning to write about Roomie for the longest time…
know one knows
I’m suffocating in my own emotions. It’s like the past 2 months never happened. This isn’t fair to me! Why does it have to be one way or the other? Why does this have to be so complicated? It’s like I don’t know what to do anymore. And I hate it. I just hate it.
Males
It’s like I’m wired to be disappointed by the males in my life. Not even those I’m romantically linked with, but friends, father figures, and all alike.
Seriously?!
I talk about someone here, and the next day I hear from them…. My blog is possessed. Came home for lunch again today (even though I didn’t eat anything), and there was a hug left for me. From Fred. Wow Oh. And I broke my word (actually, i don’t think i ever replied to him, [...]
On the table
So Tuesday, after I’ve chalked The Marine up on the Asshole list, I log onto a messenger during my lunch break, and low and behold, there’s a msg from him. I’m sorry, it wasn’t a message. It was an emoticon. A flirty one. But that was it. No response when I said hi… Still no [...]
Nightmares and Sex
Nightmares… or maybe it wasn’t a nightmare. I don’t know. I can’t remember. But what I can remember is GuyX was there. Every time I woke up, and went back to bed, hoping to be rid of that damn dream, there he was. Taunting me. I hate it when people invade my dreams, more so [...]
Alienation
I just made a mean crack at the most recent ex-boyfriend. We’re working on being friends, and I’m in a really bad mood today. So I took it out on him. He’s recently admitted to alienating people in his life, and I made a comment about being like him by alienating people in mine. I [...]
Because. Goodbye.
He stopped talking to me while I’m still not talking to him. I’m still not talking to almost anyone. And he said goodbye. Because he doesn’t understand. Because he can’t understand. Because he doesn’t get me. I am down one more friend. Because I was trying to find myself. Because he was distracting me and [...]
realizations from the other day
WTF! Am I just not good enough for anyone the way I am? Why is it that everyone wants me to change? Why was I fine before, but now I’m not?
A glimpse into my head
I don’t want to be married.. I just want that constant in my life. No one seems constant anymore. Well. At least not anyone who lives around here. All friends who were, seem to be none the less anymore.
1st place, or last… depends on how you look at it
I’m 22 and not married.
babble
Seriously, what’s the deal w/ all the perversion in life these days?
I need stepping stones to show the way
He ment it. oh my.
The number of the day is…. 3
I have one week left of work… then a week long vacation… everything that was pose to be done over that week, is like no more… Roomie’s taking my car in for its inspection/oil change tomorrow (only b/c he wants to borrow it to run errands).. and yeah.. there’s nothing else planned.. a week of [...]
I go up, I come down, and i’m emptier inside
Housekeeping was up here for a lil. HSKPG: How’s Fred? ME: I don’t know, I haven’t talked to him since Thursday night, he’s blocked HSKPG: Why? ME: b/c he won’t stop hitting on me, and I’m sick of it! HSKPG: That’s b/c he’s fucked you ME: Yah, well too bad, he’s going to have [...]
a little bit of everything, all rolled into one
Housekeeping and I were talking this morning.
oh my wow
Fred: u know the second i ever get single again Fred: <— coming for u Letsnottalk: why? * Fred likes Letsnottalk Fred: and would a lot more if i allowed myself to Fred: is a matter of self-preservation luv Fred: you’re fun to flirt with.. You’re fun to talk to.. You’re fun to stare at.. [...]
