There’s so much I could update with. So much I could say.
It’s Always the Same
In the end, the girl with the heart on her sleeve, the one eager to please and happy to help, the innocent one who doesn’t realize when she’s being taken advantage of, the girl who would stick up for you regardless of anything, is the same one who is easily influenced, who people take advantage [...]
Shopping
I am now like…. officially broke. Christmas is running me dry, but it’s such a blast to do. This is why I have a job. This is why I do things I don’t want to. In the end it all comes down to money. And all the money just seems to vanish when Christmas comes [...]
Maybe… just maybe…
I shouldn’t be such a hateful bitch. There might actually be something serious wrong. Doesn’t mean I have to call tho.
UNguilted
Maybe they thought that because today was Thanksgiving, that they could talk me into calling the ex-step-asshole…. Hah! It’s a rare thing for me to feel guilt. Esp regarding him. Guilt tripping me doesn’t work. Ever. Esp not if i’m sick like I am. Then I feel no guilt for anyone. Wonder if I can [...]
tough shit
I had a really crappy birthday tomorrow I meet with a realtor and look at more places. After I’m done with her, I meet with a mortgage lender to see how much I can get. Mom said she’d cosign for me. Aww I am getting out of here
Thank you Doctor pt.2
The drugs make me sicker before they make me better. I didn’t think I could get any sicker. But I can. And I have. I feel like I’m going to cry… In other news, I talked to my uncle today about finding someplace to live. He’s going to assist me once I find a place. [...]
Something to think about
This makes 3 nights in a row. It’s kinda nice coming home to someone other then the dogs (yes, I let him stay here while I’m at work during the day) Talked to his sister today (she’s awesome). She told me that I was good for him. That we’re cute together. But she doesn’t know [...]
Let sleeping dogs lie
So. As we speak, there is currently a guy passed out in my bed. Not just any guy. But GuyX. Surprise Surprise. Honestly, I didn’t think this was ever going to happen, but he came over to look at something I’m thinking about giving him (get your minds out of the gutter!) and 7 hrs, [...]
Drama drama go away. Don’t come back another day
Mountain Dew seems to work better then coffee in the morning. How strange. I must admit tho, I do like the taste better. For the entire three nights of the weekend (Friday included), I managed a grand total of 14 hours. But only because I got 7 hrs Friday night and managed to snag an [...]
Birthday
It’s GuyX’s birthday today. I haven’t slept in about 24 hrs (a lil more then)… I’m crashing and then we’re going right back out (been with him since midnight this morning) Congrats to us: 10 hrs with eachother, and we didn’t have sex. We didn’t even make out. We just hung out. He’s trying to [...]
From the beginning…
Logging onto messengers via phone only leads to trouble. Since I got another promotion at work, I haven’t had much time to sit in front of a computer and chat. So I logged on via phone so I could chat when I got a moment free. The Marine took this as a chance to corner [...]
um sure
It’s not that I’ve ran out of things to say…. I have a lot I need to write down somewhere. It’s just that… I don’t know what’s going on really. Other then the fact that The Marine msg’d me yesterday out of the blue and i’m being a heartless bitch towards him. Yeah.. I don’t [...]
Without parents to defy, we break the rules we make for ourselves.
Last night just pushed me further into confusion. But oh my god was it worth it. I was talking to Housekeeping this morning, and she was wondering why I’m so damn tired this morning (3 hrs of sleep’ll do that to a person). And since she’s been on vacation for the past week n’ a [...]
Mind Games
Ok. I’m in a bind. I probably wouldn’t be if both boys had not wanted to hang out with me last night at the exact same time. But they did. And since I already had plans w/ Brain (and he wouldn’t move them to tonight), GuyX was kinda left outta the loop. I’m at work [...]
In the rain pt.2
So now that Brain is done being a jerk (his words) and promises never to do that again (nothing major, he just took his work frustrations out on me), he is allowed back over @ the house. With that being said, we were all out to dinner tonight, and invited the neighbor. So there we [...]
In the rain
Mom has somehow decided that she wants to meet GuyX. I, of course, told her no. She wouldn’t like him. Not at all. He’s pierced. And inked. And she doesn’t like that kind of things. So I told her as much, and she’s vowed to keep her mouth shut about things if she were to [...]
And the beat goes on
I am so completely exhausted with my new charges. But it’s okay. I wanted them, so I’m taking care of them. I don’t back out on responsibilities. It is nice to have some help. I have my hands completely full, but we’ve made so much progress. I’m so proud of them, and thankful for mom [...]
Oops
I know she didn’t mean to…. and that she thought she was being nice n’ helping my self-esteem… but she just hurt it even more. We’re fine in regards to the fight…. She’s acting like nothing ever happened… But when she tells me I’ll be tinier then her when I drop all this weight.. Like [...]
Left it on the work comp by accident
I feel like I need to take a break from everything and sort out my head. Nurse Myra’s comment made a lot of sense. I can’t figure out anymore why I want to rush into anything.
Remedy
I thought everything was good. That the fights had stopped. I was wrong. I can’t take the fighting anymore. I can’t handle the stress. I don’t want to deal with this.
Males pt.2
I’ve been meaning to write about Roomie for the longest time…
Males
It’s like I’m wired to be disappointed by the males in my life. Not even those I’m romantically linked with, but friends, father figures, and all alike.
The Marine
At the time I wrote about him in the past, he was supposed to be like a permanent fixture in my life. But he ended up not being, so I never really got around to talking about him using a specific name.
Growing up
Admissions had mentioned something to me the other day I thought was a lil weird.
