It strange to think that almost everyone who has their own tag in here isn’t in my life anymore. Guess i’m cursed like that. It’s like they all fell out of my life (or maybe i kicked them out for not being good enough for me). oh well. what happened happened. no changing that now. [...]
It’s Always the Same
In the end, the girl with the heart on her sleeve, the one eager to please and happy to help, the innocent one who doesn’t realize when she’s being taken advantage of, the girl who would stick up for you regardless of anything, is the same one who is easily influenced, who people take advantage [...]
From the beginning…
Logging onto messengers via phone only leads to trouble. Since I got another promotion at work, I haven’t had much time to sit in front of a computer and chat. So I logged on via phone so I could chat when I got a moment free. The Marine took this as a chance to corner [...]
um sure
It’s not that I’ve ran out of things to say…. I have a lot I need to write down somewhere. It’s just that… I don’t know what’s going on really. Other then the fact that The Marine msg’d me yesterday out of the blue and i’m being a heartless bitch towards him. Yeah.. I don’t [...]
Curiosity killed the cat
I’m half tempted to ask if we can be friends. but at the same time, if you never want to talk to me again, I don’t want to know. I’m sorry. It was not done without regret. I wish there was a way to fix it. To fix what happened. It shouldn’t have happened [...]
Alienation
I just made a mean crack at the most recent ex-boyfriend. We’re working on being friends, and I’m in a really bad mood today. So I took it out on him. He’s recently admitted to alienating people in his life, and I made a comment about being like him by alienating people in mine. I [...]
I need a box of band-aids. they make things better
I’m trying not to be such a cunt. I’m making amends with the people in my past who I’ve screwed up with or who have screwed up with me. Life’s too short to be mad at people 24/7 and you’ll never know when you need those people in your life. Face to face. Seems the [...]
A glimpse into my head
I don’t want to be married.. I just want that constant in my life. No one seems constant anymore. Well. At least not anyone who lives around here. All friends who were, seem to be none the less anymore.
Defenseless
I figure it’s time for an update of some sort. What’s new you ask? Well….
Happy Be Sociable Day!
I got completely reamed the other day. Mom was asking who all was coming for dinner tonight (we’re weird n’ celebrate different holidays… Today’s Boxing Day). So I named me, the sister, mom, Roomie, and his boyfriend. I may have left an insignificant person out in all of that, but hey, it didn’t bother me [...]
a little bit of everything, all rolled into one
Housekeeping and I were talking this morning.
1 down. How many to go?
So my friend Derek n’ I were talking the other night. He needed relationship help. I can’t understand why my friends come to me with their relationship problems… It’s not like I have any more insight then they do into their relationships. But regardless of what I know (or don’t know in most cases), I [...]
I have a penguin.
He’s big, soft, and cuddly. Was talking to Beth the other day about relationships, and mine gets brought up. Now, I love Beth. We’ve been friends long enough that I shouldn’t have to defend my actions. However, that wasn’t the case with our conversation. She’s overprotective of me. I’ve been known to make really stupid [...]
It carried over into this week….. damnit
I got written up at work today.. Walked out of the conference room, into the bathroom and just started crying.. I guess everyone loves me, but I slipped up on Friday and then everything just came out… I can’t do anything to make anyone happy no matter how much i do for people or how [...]
What’s so hard about NO
Housekeeping thinks I’m crazy because I like animals.. Case point: I finally put my fish down.. So mom’s boyfriend is getting me a new tank with angelfish. Housekeeping doesn’t like animals. Well…. She does. She says she likes cows. And horses.. And donkeys because they’re so little but they have such big cocks. Wow, I [...]
Slowly pull myself together
So.. I think I’ve recovered from my most recent mind break… Being led on still isn’t cool in my book, but I’m dealing w/ it (and completely avoiding anything having to do with it)
lifeline
It’s amazing how one little show of affection can make me happy. And how I’ll hold onto that until it just crumbles away, leaving me sitting here hoping for a new one so I can hold onto that. Just so I don’t feel so alone in the world.
a fresh coat of paint hides the imperfections
housekeeping and I were talking this morning…
I have to peeeeeeeeeeeeeee
Okay…. recap- i’m a receptionist @ a nursing home…
To whom it may concern
We hate you.
friends and plans
I banged my arm into a car mirror lastnight and now have a giant painfull bruise on my arm
they love me! they really love me!
I have 2 real best friends. One i see at work 4/7 days of the week, and who may infact move into the house if shit doesn’t straighten up at her house. And the other who i don’t see all that often, but look forward to the daily calls (or voicemails when i don’t answer [...]
*baffled*
I wonder what cruel person decided to give my gummi worms faces…. heads i can understand… but faces?? That only makes me want to eat them 1st… and i do.. my poor worms…. between me and Beth, they don’t last very long at work…. cept i won’t eat the yellow n’ green ones… they’re gross [...]
There goes my life
I think my subjects are going to be song titles… prolly whatever i’m listening to at the time… *Dustin’s becomming clingy… and always tryin to hit me up for money for his drug habit… it’s getting old… fast.. *I have more scars than i started with this morning… at least 3 more… all caused by [...]
i’m self-distructing… and not saving me
The little sis’s party is today… there are 16 child type things coming to the house… and i’m not in the mood for it.. but i can’t leave… She wants me here… So insted of going out w/ my friend today, i’m gunna ask if she wants to come over n’ hang out n’ help [...]
